Du håller mig kvar i något lämnat för längesedan

It was a great day. Mostly because it didn't turn out the way I thought it would. It was even better!

I'm just sitting here, waiting for you to come on home and turn me on

My favorite part of the week, by far, starts at 12.15 on Saturdays. After ballet, before work. It's just be and my iPod, strolling along the streets of Malmö. Making my way to Lund. It's just one of those in- between- places. Between two realities. And when you're in it, when you're in between, you can just let go.

Och samlat damm på min gitarr

So it seems to be that the force is gone. We're getting tired and the energi just isn't there. I hate admitting it, don't want to jinx what we have. Because I very much want things to go in the other directon. Swing the other way.

Start wasting my time

I wish I could have lived a parallel life in the place where I grew up, just to see how things could have turned out if decisions were made differently. I am tired of trying to figure out what is real and what is not in that place. Trying to grasp all that I experience as surreal. I just want to divide memories from fantasies, as they are still entwined and are making me dizzy.

You can turn the pavement into white sand, you can make a moment a memory in a glance

I wish you would ask me something, anything.

I don't know whether to laugh or to cry

    

And I feel as though I’ve known you since a thousand years
And you tell me that you’ve seen my face before


Dear redhead boy

I am trying to figure out whether or not she will let go. I don't think she is willing to, neither am I. Whoops.


Castles made of sand

I'm a realist
I'm a romantic
I am indecisive
and that's about it.

Oh, when you're cold

Jag hade glömt hur underbart det är med KENT under mörka höstkvällar, särskilt när man sitter på en ödelagd tågstation i en stad döpt efter mineralvatten.


Feeling the same way all over again, singing the same lines all over again



Like a flower waiting to bloom
Like a lightbulb in a dark room
Like the desert waiting for the rain
Like a school kid waiting for the spring

My hi-fi's waiting for a new tune
The glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes


I won't let you lie to yourself

There was a little toddler on the bus, with her mother. The kid kept pointing at a man about my own age and repeatedly yelled "Daddy". I found this very awkward. So did the mother.


Machines, machines, point me to the nearest party

She is my friend with the curly hair. She deserves the best.

If this is a race, then I hope you come last. You're on a bridge to nowhere and you're getting there fast

I am having a good week. Sometimes, things just click. And so, I can't seem to get the word "flow" off my mind.
The truth is, you need to have reached a stage of disfunction before you can accept flow. My life is in motion.
It is flowing.. quite freely actually.

Jag mår bra, och det blir vackert

I couldn't have said it any better myself. Oh, wait. I did!

It's true, life will smile for you

So I will let my smile speak for itself, and I very much hope you get the message.

Dear redhead boy,

It is actually 12.56 pm.
But as soon as this song started playing, the daytime turned to night. It started to snow and I was on the other side of town. And I was not alone, either.


And the girl who can save me is well across the Pennines

     

     

Let's dance to joy division
And celebrate the irony
Everything is going wrong
But we're so happy


Here's another song about a gender I'll never understand

Ibland blir det inte som man hade tänkt sig. Men, det blir oftast bra ändå!

Men du behöver inte säga något

So here I am again. It's Friday the 13th and yet, nothing bad has happened. Truth be told, I don't believe in the superstitions that revolve around this particular date. But, I still have this bad feeling inside that maybe, maybe, the negative things will be postponed until another day. Now, I can't quite afford that.

Can you take me higher, to a place where blind men see?


I yelled back when I heard thunder, but I'm down to one last breath

There are certain songs that just take me back. Right now, I am listening to one that for some strange reason takes me back to a place I haven't been in a long time. Across the globe, to an area I haven't been in years. Somehow, this song is linked to that place. Even so, it is as if I have never even been there. So the memories and the fantasies are all entwined, and I can't seem to make out what is what.

Det fanns en kärlek, men den har brunnit ut. Du fick för stor del av mitt liv, jag kunde inte andas tillslut

Finally, I can lift my arm above my head. It's as if all of my strength vanished from my left arm. But it's back, and I am very grateful. Today I took a long walk with a close friend. We really needed an update on eachother. So we informed each other on all of life's little struggles and also all of life's little surprises. We walked at the same pace, through my favorite park, during my favorite season.  

Kom hem när du vill, jag är vaken hela natten

Two very special things happened today. The first, was that it snowed. I liked that. I know I was complaining a bit, but really, I was smiling on the inside. Secondly, I walked into a street sign. That hurt.


Jag vill inte spara min längtan. Jag har tänkt, men aldrig fått tala

I keep thinking that we've reached our peak. This is as good as it gets. But, day after day, you keep surprising me.
I surprise myself. We keep reaching new levels. Breakthrough, they call it. I can't help but wonder, when will it all end? It's far too good to be true. But I also find myself wanting more. And I love this feeling.  

Because it is getting colder outside, but warmer inside.. me

I want to take long drives with you. I want to drive up mountains. And then I want to take in the scenery. With you, of course.


Are you the kind that cries when no one is watching?

You're just one of those people, you fly. You fly higher than the rest of us. That's good. Flying high is ambitious. But dear, please don't let me lose sight of you. There are others up there, in your league. But they're just as light- headed as you. And I, I am here to keep you grounded.


Jag ser pojkar som gråter och flickor som tar dem i hand

I'm off to bed. Right now. I love how it's incredibly windy outside. It makes my bed seem 10 times as cozy. I'm sure I will enjoy that. Right now.

Det regnade idag, och jag tackar dig för det

 

 



Det tar ett tag för mig, jag kanske glömmer hur man gör
Sist var himlen vit som papper ovanför
Men jag har slutat säga nej, nu ska jag göra vad jag kan
Jag ska riva mina murar tills vi ser varann


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