It's hard to imagine you being unaware. Honestly, I think you are. Then, why do I keep forcing things? Or, if anything, taking a step back? I would expect you to have noticed. And I would expect you to have taken a stand. But then again, I don't know you. Also, you just might be unaware. If so, the solution is in fact quite simple. Enlightenment.

Skeleton we have been friends for years
And you have seen me through some trials
And tribulations and some tears
But everybody thinks I'm weird

And I should have known
That it wouldn't be long
Until you, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
And it's not that I'm letting go of you
But I don't know what to do

'Cause sometimes at night,
I dream of the most terrible things
I take a hammer and I creep out of bed
And I raise it high
And I smash your head
Fibular and tubular
And ribs and cages, too
In fact, while I'm here
I'll smash the whole of you

But Skeleton, you are my friend
And I could never bring your life to an end
Yes Skeleton you are, you are my friend
And I will be there for you until the end

And even though, when I take you out
You've got me, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
I could, I could never let you go
And that is all I know

I dream of a world without the anti- social, i- pod- version of people, myself included. A world where people don't stare at you just because you're a girl holding a McDonald's paper bag.

I think the reason why things are out of balance is because they aren't.

I'm wondering if spring is here for good now. It was nice out today, but that might just be the atmosphere making fools out of us. Giving an opportunity, a new fresh feeling, just to take it all away before you know it. If that's the case, then I would rather just skip weather entirely. It's too complicated, and complication is no good for me.    

It's like an out- of- body experience. Although, I'm not sure if it was chosen or not. This a siuation I've never been in before and, I'm afraid of the outcome. Waiting, postponing. Going trough the motions while.. waiting. For something. I'm kind of looking at myself from the outside. The only thing I can't seem to figure out is what it is I am waiting for. A friend once told me that he never had any expectations. That is my main problem. However, the opposite. My expectations are way too high. Nothing good enough ever comes along.

You know that gut feeling. The one when your intuition tells you something but you're afraid of being let down, so you doubt it anyway.