You talk with tongues of angels and there is grace in all you do
I try to document everything mentally. Make an effort to remember dates and moments. But, then I realize that making an effort takes away the pleasure of moment. And so, instead I will try not to.
Can't you find a clue when your eyes are all painted Sinatra blue
I just want to dive, take it all in and get lost there.
All winter we got carried
Away over on the roof tops, let's get married
All summer we just hurried
So come over, just be patient and don't worry
Oh, oh, oh
What would I be doing if I were there? Walking alongside a river. I know it. Last year, I spent hours sitting on a bench looking out over my river, talking to strangers, talking to firneds. Anyone who would listen. If I could, I would be there now. I would be walking alongside my river.
Once a failure, always a retard
Now the sky could be blue
I don't mind
Without you it's a waste of time
I replace this title with a melody
There are some days that just work. They just flow on non- stop and they make up for every single irritation in the past. They make up for every single day when things kept getting in your way and messing with your head. This day just worked. It made up for it all.
It makes no difference
I could just imagine him being there, surrounded by his posse. His group of followers who had been carefully selected from every corner and every dumb hole in country. And I can imagine him hating every second of it.
Flat and thin, speechless within
I dreamt we walked from room to room
Opened doors into those parts of you
All the memories that I have of us before
Och stanna inte
Walking
Walking
Walking
Tree!
Walking
Walking
Walking
Walking
Walking
Tree!
Walking
Walking
Walking
Now, what's holding you back?
The power of the four seasons is amazing. Once that first leaf has fallen off that chestnut tree outside your window, everything is in motion. The breeze starts heading your way and it brings along a new sense of direction for you. Change, a chance to reform. Summer was summer, and now, it is finally autumn.
Vi ska träffas där det inget mörker finns
"Han befann sig ute i ljus och luft medan de sögs ner i döden, och de befann sig därnere därför att han var häruppe. Det visste han och det visste de, och han kunde se denna medvetenhet i deras ansikten. Det fanns inga förebråelser vare sig i deras ansikten eller deras hjärtan, endast vetskapen att de måste dö för att han skulle kunna leva, och att detta hörde till tingens oundvikliga ordning."
And how dare you not say it to my face?
Not again. Not now, not this soon. Exactly nine months has passed and it feels like I'm right back there again. Why do I keep putting myself in this situation? More importantly, why do I let others put me here?
Too much decision everywhere
I used to wake up to your voice. It was the nicest way to wake up. But you have lost your voice now. There's too much to say but not enough words.
Perfect shadows lie behind us and this is the day I make you mine
What I need is sleep. I need to absorb everything. So many recent changes, drastic changes. Feelings that have evolved and feelings that have been numbed out. So I take a step back, start seeing things from the outside. This is not ok, this is not a good situation to be in. To be stuck in.
Funny the way it is, if you think about it
Wait a minute, what's going on here? Is the grey going away?
Funny how it fades away just as you do. And now, air.
Tell us what we did wrong, then you can blame us for it
I promised myself I would never edit things. Never erase them. So I won't. Forget what I said. But just block it out. Move on, make choices. I will. I'm fading things out. Unnecessary bullshit. Not forgetting, not erasing. Just fading out until time heals and until the clouds give me space to breathe and think for myself. I can't be under the influence of romantic Beatles- musicals, no matter how incredibly mindblowing and beautiful they are. I can't hide behind big words or powerful phrases. It's done and over with, for the time being.
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings
I remember seeing you on a bus about a year ago. I didn't know you too well, so I never said hi. I wanted to. If I saw you on a bus today, I would run to you. Perhaps from you. Or maybe, I would just stand still like I did the previous time.
Without me you've got it all
I haven't forgotten how it used to be, how we used to be, the goals we set up or the plans that we made for ourselves. I believe we will get there. But right now, for the moment, nothing can be done.
Just greenery and humid air
Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it.
Oh boy
I just want to melt in to you. And stay that way until someone else objects. But even so, we'll just change positions and get comfortable again. No stopping us.
So many territories ready to reform. Don't let it form us.
If you need to crash a little, fall apart a little, that's ok.
Just get on the fucking train and leave today
You look for leads, I follow clues
You love to win, I dare to lose
Mostly you're a mind game in my head
This is it
On Thursday you were drunk. Humorous. Friday came and we were all getting sick of you. On Saturday you were still drunk. It was disgusting. On Sunday you were completely sober and embarrassed. Ashamed? Monday morning, you put on your suit and tie. Went to work.
What a scary world we live in.
What a scary world we live in.
We never change, do we?
So this is what it's all about I assume. Not letting in the negative people into my mind. Being only with the ones I love. The ones I deserve to be with. I experienced it, took it in. Let it soak. And now, I move on.
