As I remember it
So, I guess I didn't end up writing about my day after all. You get the picture though.
You know it's spring when
And we'll run for our lives
Through the madness and empty thoughts
It's a shame I can't say everything I want to say. But you know who you are.
And you never called
Ignore as if you were superior
Enter as if the seasons had never changed
She must feel as awkward
Stand up to a giant
Say that I'm a fighter
Too drunk to remember
Though a million faces pass my way, they're all the same
You were drunk, and I was drunk under the April sun
The unknown is often assumed as something negative. And I was one of those people who believed in this definition. I was afraid of who I was becoming. I thought something was wrong with me, the social butterfly who all of the sudden became calm, reserved and quiet. That was a side of myself I hadn't seen before, and I was terrified by it. I didn't want to be one of those invisible people in the background. The anti- socials. But, the clarity I have now has changed everything. This isn't one of my "you're- a- strong- woman- be- yourself- you- can- conquer- the- world"- texts. No. It's just that.. things are finally falling in place for me. Sure, it could just be that spring is on its way and the sun is out more often nowadays. But, I don't think so. It's so much more than that. It might be absolutely horrifying, discovering a new side. It wasn't like I was prepared for this whole mental acumen. However, I don't feel the need to stop it either. It feels natural. This side of me was probably always there. It just wasn't dominant at the time because.. maybe I didn't need it. Do I need it now?
Walking like you're stuck in velvet snow
The horizon has been defeated
All is well in my world.
And so it is just like you said it would be
I'm in a bubble at the moment. No one can really reach me, and that feels quite nice as a matter of fact. Others can observe, but never come close. To be honest, I'm not sure if they are likely to either. In my mind is where i'm most comfortable, if that makes sense. Alone, in my own thoughts. But I absolutely love the observers. They make me happy. They give my bubble a purpose. They give me purpose. I guess you could call me a social loner. I like that.
Dum- da- dum
It gives me thrills to wind you up
Stray dog, you’re only a stray
Caught in suspension
nn- nn- no- n- no- n- no- n- no- n- nono
I get by with a little help from my friends
One more drink
Could you make it strong?
Because I don't need to think
He broke my heart
My grace is gone
Another drink and I'll move on
Reality is crashing to the floor
Lalalalla
And I'll be your lover too
Your heart lacks beating
I am grown, I am
Think of the day where I'm sure to come
When I'm seen, I'm smiling
When I know where I'm going to run
When I know where I will go
I will be gone somewhere else
You could see, you could see it through my mind
'
How strange or odd soe'er I bear myself,
As I perchance hereafter shall think meet
To put an antic disposition on,
That you, at such times seeing me, never shall,
With arms encumber'd thus, or this headshake,
Or by pronouncing of some doubtful phrase,
As "Well, well, we know," or "We could, an if we would,"
Or "If we list to speak," or "There be, an if they might,"
Or such ambiguous giving out, to note
That you know aught of me-this not to do,
So grace and mercy at your most need help you, Swear.
When Hollywood was calling out your name
