It's like an out- of- body experience. Although, I'm not sure if it was chosen or not. This a siuation I've never been in before and, I'm afraid of the outcome. Waiting, postponing. Going trough the motions while.. waiting. For something. I'm kind of looking at myself from the outside. The only thing I can't seem to figure out is what it is I am waiting for. A friend once told me that he never had any expectations. That is my main problem. However, the opposite. My expectations are way too high. Nothing good enough ever comes along.